Changes

So a lot has changed with me in the past month.

I turned 19.
I stopped rowing.
I stopped doing anything actually.
I became a pathetic mess.
I turned to cutting myself to deal with my problems.
I chopped 10 in. off my hair to donate to Locks of Love.

And now
I've come to conclusion to change away from all this negativeness.
I've always had a terrible self image. I actually hid behind my long hair - chopping it off has really helped that. I'm now forced to make people see me (or at least my face) because of it. I actually think it might have been one of the best things I could have done for myself.
I've decided that I WILL become a better person. I will be CONFIDENT. I know this won't be overnight and I will definitely fail and have setbacks. But the important part is that I WILL pick myself up and carry on. And I think this blog will help me do this.
I finally starting to be in a better place :)

And starting with these changes - I want  "will" run a half marathon this Fall!
I know this won't be easy and believe me when I say I am scared. I am scared I will fall off this momentum and never get back up. Part of running the half marathon, I want to lose weight. And I am really worried that I won't see results and I will just quit.

But that just won't happen. Note to Self - "The past is in the past for a reason. So that's why you should make the future you want on your own."

Bis nächste Mal!
-Sam